My Great Bohol Adventure

This is one adventure I will never forget my whole life through. Not only is this my first out of town without my family in tow, this is also my gift for myself for finishing my MBA. I hope you have fun watching my pictures, as much as I have fun during the said adventure. This is one unforgettable week. The holy week of 2008.

Goodbye.....Sister

I lost my sister a few hours ago. The disease she has acquired when she was a puppy about five years ago has recurred, and this time she succumbed.

I am so sad, not only did I lost my pet dog, but it feels that I lost my sister. During weekends, when I'm at home, she's is my bedmate, my companion in my intention to spend the whole day sleeping and spending all my time reading and just laying in bed with nothing to do but daydream and think of all my plans, ambitions and dreams.

She is one creature whom I really think knows me inside out. She knows me better than any other person I know. I can easily be myself when I am with her. No pretensions, no masks. I can just be who I am, and she is A-okay with. She accepts and loves me for whoever and whatever I am. No buts, no what-ifs. I can tell her everything, from my thoughts, my hopes, my fears, my struggles, my failures, my mistakes and my anger and frustrations without the fear of being despised, rejected or judged. I am so comfortable and confident with our relationship because when I am with her I can just be ME.

She is not just a pet. She's the sister I always wanted and never had. She's the type of friend I wished for myself and wanted to become to my other friends. I LOVE HER. Very Much. More than I can ever describe and project. Way more than the words that I can write and say. No words will be enough to illustrate the kind of sadness that I feel now. I know that I will never be the same without her. There will always be that void that only she can fill.

Shandy, be well and happy. Thank you for being there for me when I needed your company the most. I'll always be thankful that you came into our lives and brought us the joy that we will always carry and treasure in our hearts. You will always be a part of me, my existence will never be the same since you came and will be different now that you have left me here, to face all the struggles and challenges that life has to offer, though not alone, but incomplete.

I am letting you go now. I can't bear to see you struggling with your sickness. I'd rather not be with you physically than to see you suffer and be hurt. I know you are in a happier place now. A place where there is only room for hope, joy and love. I know your in dog heaven, watching over us. Keep an eye on me always, dear sister. You're now angel, as you have always been when you were still here on my side. I'm sorry I could not be there to send you off to your wonderful journey to heaven, but always know that I am here, crying and sobbing my tears, saying my goodbyes.

I LOVE YOU, SHANDY. I am surely going to miss you terribly. It pains me to know that you will not be, wagging your tail when get back home, you will always be in my heart for all my life. I will never get tired to thank God, for your coming in our home, become part of my family for five years and leaving us all in awe with the wonders of your existence. Guide me and continue on loving me, will you? I'm very sure that you will.

LOVE YOU, MISS YOU and THANK YOU, MY DEAR SISTER.

It hurts when love fails

Graphics for Heartbreak Comments

This one Filipino song that truly describes my thoughts on love as of the moment.
I hope you also get affected with the message of the song when you read the lyrics.


It Hurts When Love Fails

I'm afraid to love you
I'm afraid to care
I hope you understand my heart
Coz it hurts when love fails

I'm afraid to hold you
I'm afraid of your touch
I'm afraid to love again
Coz it hurts when love fails


It hurts me so bad that time
that i wasn't able to sleep
Tears were falling from my eyes
And i never noticed it.
It hurts me so bad that I
never wanted to live.
I'm afraid to love again
Coz it hurts when love fails

I'm afraid to look at you
I'm afraid of your kiss
Coz I've been through this before
And it hurts when love fails.

Bad "Hair" Day

I cut may hair yesterday (Sunday). Short. As in short (by my own standard, that is.) For most people, cutting their hair would indicate that they are happy and inspired. But for me, cutting my hair, or doing anything about it would mean the opposite. For most of the time, I only cut my hair when I feel sad, lonely and depressed. I have this stupid idea that once I lose a part of my wavy hairs, along come with it all the hurt and desperation I feel and try to hide inside.

I could not say that my act of cutting my hair yesterday was different from the previous ones. Yes, I kinda sad and depressed, but the main reason why I wanted to cut my hair was the thought and the hope that, I want a fresh new start, with nothing in particular. I just had this feeling that I need new beginnings and new perspectives.

I was really hopeful, up until early this morning when all of a sudden, those hopes was just flushed through the sink. You see, I slept early last night, even missing some of my favorite TV shows (believe me, doing so, is indeed a sacrifice), I woke up early than usual this morning, only to wait for more than an hour at the bus terminal for my ride for work. It was raining so hard, and I ended up not only somewhat drenched in rain but also very late.

Funny, how fate really plays its game. Just when I finally decided to make a brand new start for soul and my heart, fate comes in again, as if saying that its not yet time. How can I move on, when even my "friend" Fate, doesn't allow me to do so? Hmmp, I smell something fishy here. Is this nature's way of saying that I don't need a fresh start? Who needs a fresh start when I'm not rotten, after all. Could be true. Perhaps. Probably correct. Maybe, this is just a case of bad luck. Maybe, this happened to make me realize that no matter how much I want to do, I cannot control everything that is to happen in my life.

I do need a start. Need it so badly. And I want it soon. But how?