Goodbye.....Sister

I lost my sister a few hours ago. The disease she has acquired when she was a puppy about five years ago has recurred, and this time she succumbed.

I am so sad, not only did I lost my pet dog, but it feels that I lost my sister. During weekends, when I'm at home, she's is my bedmate, my companion in my intention to spend the whole day sleeping and spending all my time reading and just laying in bed with nothing to do but daydream and think of all my plans, ambitions and dreams.

She is one creature whom I really think knows me inside out. She knows me better than any other person I know. I can easily be myself when I am with her. No pretensions, no masks. I can just be who I am, and she is A-okay with. She accepts and loves me for whoever and whatever I am. No buts, no what-ifs. I can tell her everything, from my thoughts, my hopes, my fears, my struggles, my failures, my mistakes and my anger and frustrations without the fear of being despised, rejected or judged. I am so comfortable and confident with our relationship because when I am with her I can just be ME.

She is not just a pet. She's the sister I always wanted and never had. She's the type of friend I wished for myself and wanted to become to my other friends. I LOVE HER. Very Much. More than I can ever describe and project. Way more than the words that I can write and say. No words will be enough to illustrate the kind of sadness that I feel now. I know that I will never be the same without her. There will always be that void that only she can fill.

Shandy, be well and happy. Thank you for being there for me when I needed your company the most. I'll always be thankful that you came into our lives and brought us the joy that we will always carry and treasure in our hearts. You will always be a part of me, my existence will never be the same since you came and will be different now that you have left me here, to face all the struggles and challenges that life has to offer, though not alone, but incomplete.

I am letting you go now. I can't bear to see you struggling with your sickness. I'd rather not be with you physically than to see you suffer and be hurt. I know you are in a happier place now. A place where there is only room for hope, joy and love. I know your in dog heaven, watching over us. Keep an eye on me always, dear sister. You're now angel, as you have always been when you were still here on my side. I'm sorry I could not be there to send you off to your wonderful journey to heaven, but always know that I am here, crying and sobbing my tears, saying my goodbyes.

I LOVE YOU, SHANDY. I am surely going to miss you terribly. It pains me to know that you will not be, wagging your tail when get back home, you will always be in my heart for all my life. I will never get tired to thank God, for your coming in our home, become part of my family for five years and leaving us all in awe with the wonders of your existence. Guide me and continue on loving me, will you? I'm very sure that you will.

LOVE YOU, MISS YOU and THANK YOU, MY DEAR SISTER.