Most painful thoughts......

I have read the story " Send My Love To Heaven" in college when a friends of mine gave a copy, thinking that the "hopeless romantic" side of my persona would appreciate it. Though I really thought that she was exaggerating, I indulged her with a few minutes of my time. And true enough, the story has affected me in more ways than one. I got hooked fro the very beginning and I found myself in tears (literally and figuratively) in the end.

More than the "kilig" factor, the story has taught me a painful lesson. Everytime I read it, I always end up thinking of the biggest "regret scenario" of my life (so far). This "regret scenario" is another story. Perhaps in the very near future, I'll finally find the courage courage to write about it. After every reading, I always think of the "what ifs" and the "if only". I only I have read that story pripor to one event of my life? {Perhaps, the title of this blog might have been different.) If only I had the guts and the strenght to do something that could have changed the course of my lovelife? What if I had the courage to look and face that situation straight in the eyes? There are countless "perhaps" and "maybes" that could have occurred.

I admit, sometimes it still does haunt me. the daunting "what ifs" and "if only." Sadly, it's never going to help me now for doing so today at this very moment would no longer be significant.

I'll be forever thanlful for this story for the constant reminder, for the lesson that I have learned and will continue to learn. I have learned and recognized the hard way, that indeed, the most painful thoughts in life are the thoughts of "what ifs" and "what could have been."


P.S.
Next time, I'll post copy of the this story.